Sunday, March 2, 2008

I'm just a girl living in captivity

I was there to seduce a prince, there were trials or some such fairy tale nonsense but they were either over or my mind was too lazy to bother with them. I was in a restaurant and they toasted my good work with wide smiles and red wine and he followed me into the bathroom. I don't know who he was in relation to me but he wasn't the prince and I wasn't supposed to be seeing him, that much I knew. He wrapped his arms around my waist and watched our reflection. He told me not to cut my hair, it was long again but curled which is not possible without rain when I'm awake. My dress was blue like his shirt and his stubble tickled my neck as he kissed me. Then the screams started. Ear splitting awful screams and he kicked the door of a cubicle down and I watched a beast of a man rape this girl who'd failed with the prince. Then the room was full of people and it was a bedroom with a cardboard box holding the bastard. The girl was dead, tidied away in a drawer and he was impatient to go. Nobody seemed to mind. I threw myself at him when he tried to leave and he crushed my hand in his before throwing me face first into the door. It was at this point my eyes must have opened because from this point on I had that awful feeling that there was something missing, that if I could just see properly everything would make sense. I never knew why this kept happening in my dreams until Julie and my mum told me I slept with my eyes open quite frequently and freaked them out.

Anyway he told me to go back to his house to keep me safe. I went back through to the restaurant and ended up on a train. There was a boy in a green blazer from the school my dad went to and he sat next to me placing a hand on my knee when I smiled at him. I shook my head when he asked my name, saying I was too old, don't be silly. But I was wearing an oversexed school uniform high pigtails, tight shirt, short skirt and socks that kept falling down. Everything was falling down and I spent the whole train journey trying to right my outfit while this boy tried to kiss me. I pulled a coat off a man behind us and wrapped myself up against the rain as we walked along the railroad tracks and I pushed the boy into a ditch before I made it to his house and his blue shirt engulfed me and I was safe. We slept on blankets on the floor with his brother and he gave me a book with a red cover and told me I was in it but I never had a chance to read because these girls pulled me to the bathroom and started having showers, first one then the other talking irritable nonsense about people I didn't know and there was something behind them I couldn't see. I kept pulling his shirt down to cover my ass as more and more people pushed in and I couldn't breathe. Then his arms were pulling me back to the make shift bed and he pressed his lips against my ear and I woke up.

On the plus side nobody was made of cats and all of my teeth stayed in my mouth.

1 comment:

rob k said...

i had a nightmare that i could breathe under water and was forced to mate by external fertilization.