I have dreams of orca whales and owls

I did not study yesterday. I tried. I opened a book and I read a chapter and I browsed and I tried but I was not made to study. Not unless there are simple facts to learn. I have only ever studied seriously for one exam and that was maths. I got a C and it was my only C of the year. Yes, I am showing off. I am aware of the seething hatred as the rest of you slave away with books but I do not care. I did shit last year and I had to do good this year or I'd be funding my own wee self through a degree. Let me tell you I don't have the kind of cash to throw away on the kind of subjects I'm taking. So I did not study. I spent from 4 o'clock to 8 o'clock reading a book online which I linked on my wordpress, I am too lazy to find the link again. It was called Starfish and I have never read the whole of something online in one sitting but I did read this. It was pretty good I have to say although there were bits that were all over the place and woo. If you are less lazy than me you can go find it. It was about all these psychotic people that get sent down to the bottom of the ocean for some reason, and addiction and stuff like that. It got in my head a little bit, I like it when stuff does that. Then I watched the Champions league final and that took me to bedtime. I may not study but I know to get a good night's sleep.

So no study and it was an afternoon exam which I hate because I can't start doing anything and I'm terrified I'll forget to go and bleh. Bad times. I stress myself out because I don't study and I worry that maybe I should have. First there were two dead pigeons lying under the bridge just as I was thinking about how my dad goes on about how he wants to shoot them sometimes. Bus stank of paint and cheap cigarettes. I knew a guy who used to smell like that everyday. He always wanted to hug me and asked me where the most exotic place I'd had sex was. I barely knew him, it was funny. There was some sort of school thing going on in the park. Biodiversity is Life proclaimed the tent thing all the kids were running around shouting what number of butterfly they'd found. It was cute. But then I forgot Gemma took this subject. Dear god there's a voice I didn't need to hear before an exam, specially not her voice with all her little friends all shrieking and bleh. I avoid people before the exam, I don't need to hear how nervous someone else is, it makes me nervous when I'm not at all. There's a lot of bowing my head to avoid eye contact. I probably seem hugely anti-social but it's not like I'm bestest friends with these people. Gemma being there made me feel alone though. I hate that. It's like I only care if there's someone there to make me feel small. Bleh.

But! The exam. I had a passing thought as we walked in about Indiana Jones since it came out today but I told myself not to be silly. That is until I flipped the paper over and scanned the questions.

Question number 4: Do you think the release of the new Indiana Jones movie will have a positive or a negative effect on archaeology? Justify your answer.

I read it three times. Then I looked round the hall to see if it was a joke. Nobody looked back at me except pretty legs whose legs were so pretty. She looked at me all suspicious. Your legs are pretty girl, I was just appreciating! There were three other questions I could answer competently but fuck it if there's a question about goddamn Indiana Jones then you best answer it or you're a fool. Although nobody else around me seemed to be answering it and my god the girl next to me wrote in perfect straight lines on blank paper so neat. My exam writing is a scrawl of crazy gibberish.

Let me tell you something. My Indiana Jones essay was a goddamn beautiful piece of journalism. My other essay on ethnoarchaeology was alright but it was all about morals and stuff. Rubbish.

On the way out a Chinese girl skipped in front of me and chased a feather and stopped just in front of me but I smiled and she laughed and I sort of wanted to hug her because life was being silly today but I didn't.

And then we won the league. Man is it great times or what.