Tag I'm it

And I cannot ignore the orders of an internet meme!

And so 5 things you didn't know about me or maybe you did I can never remember what I actually say and what I just think really loudly.

1. I'm afraid of losing my ability to communicate. I sometimes stumble over my words or I can't get a sentence out even though there's nothing to be afraid of if I say it and I seriously worry that one day I will wake up and be completely incapable of speaking or writing or understanding. I have to practice conversations in my head to keep this from happening.

2. I am ridiculously vain. And better than you.

3. I have a birthmark on my left shoulder that a boyfriend once tried to scratch off and now it's all split. It's like a really annoying comfort.

4. I don't like hearing other people say my name and if they have to say it I can only stand to hear it in full. Any shortening, nickname or whatever makes feel me detached but too many people know me by Cat now that I can't be bothered trying to change this. I have never ever introduced myself by anything other than Catherine.

5. Both my grandpas died within a year of one another. I visited the first one, who I was in no way close to and had been ill since I'd been born practically, and it really affected me. He didn't even know who I was anymore but still it's something that really hit me. So when my Papa was admitted the next year I could not bring myself to see him even though I was really close to him and I never did visit him. This is my one and only regret in all of the stupid things I've done in my life. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye nor did I get to show him I cared. Funerals are empty.

I'm tagging Julie because she always has the best answers to memes. OMG PRESSURE YOU HAVE TO UPDATE NOW BITCH.