Rawr feminist rant.

Do men honestly think asking for sex point blank works? I honestly never thought I'd have to wonder about this, but during my almost two years of being single I have had to deal with being asked if I'd sleep with someone more than I'd like. And I have no idea how to react. If I laugh it off and joke along I'm scared they'll think I'm easy. If I tell them to stop it or ignore them I get pestered more, told it was all just a laugh, no need to overreact. Did I encourage them? I am a terrible flirt, I find it so funny and fun. So then I'm confused and annoyed which leads inevitably to them claiming I'm confusing and blowing hot and cold and teasing them and God knows. Either I attract the lamest guys (and there have been a few lame ones in the bunch) or the whole world has gone to crap.

Whatever happened to romance. Is it so hard these days to find a guy that wants something slightly more meaningful than an easy fuck. I'm not naive enough to think guys don't think about sex. By now I assume that's all they want and hope to be pleasantly surprised. I'm drawn, because of this, to guys that aren't obsessed with sex. Not because I want a relationship with them but because I know I'm safe. I can relax.

I'm growing tired of 'society today'. I used to able to talk to any guy. I can still talk to guys more readily than girls simply because girls have always confused me. I can understand guys more or less just apparently not the ones who have any interest in me whatsoever. I don't want to sound like a whiny single person. You know 'waa waa I want a relationship why aren't there any good people out there'. I know why I'm single. I spent three months doing everything I could to move on to the next guy and got pretty close to a few before I pulled back, shut down and went 'nu uh' Catherine you are being sensible this time.

So here I am. Sensible. Which means the only guys that want me now are the crazies who don't talk to me for months and then get bored and go "hey there sex now plz?" and I go no and they go away for a little while. They depress me more than they should.

I don't even know if I want another relationship. It's hard work and ends in heartbreak. I'm not even sure I like who I am when I'm with someone. But I miss having someone to hold. I'm an affectionate person and I went from having a big group of girls who always needed a hug and a boyfriend to having a few friends, most of which I don't know well enough for hugging purposes and when I do with ones I know well I get accused of being gay. Pff I almost wish I were, then all my problems would be solved! But lesbians confuse me. Too many emotions.

I think what I'm getting at is everything is overly complicated so could everything stop being complicated please?

Classical quote to consider:
From the same book that gave peeing instructions. Woman here being created by Zeus: "I shall give them an affliction in which they will all delight as they embrace their own misfortune." Awesome, how do you like being an affliction all you women out there. Personally I'm loving it. I'm so bored of the woman bashing in all my classes. But then I'm the one that picked the historical subjects. Enjoy my favourite women bashing comic: